It's been a while since I've poured out my heart - I'm sure you were all a little relieved to have a break :). In all honesty, I've been a little relieved to have a break from the massive adjustment that was started just 2 and 1/2 months ago. Of course we are still adjusting and will be forever because things change so rapidly with each new phase/day, but things seem to be coming a little more naturally these days, more "routine" and enjoyment are an everyday occurrence - and for that I am very thankful. Part of me hesitated to write that knowing that we don't need to "get comfortable" or "get stuck in a routine", we need to be utterly and completely dependent upon the Lord. And often times, discomfort and jolts in life can be catapults to utter dependence upon Him. But, I also consider His kindness and gentleness and that we are encouraged to rest in Him and be in and where He has called us at this time. I feel like I could describe this time as kind and gentle (as strange as that sounds to describe a time of life as kind and gentle). And at this time I am enjoying this new life as a family of 3. I am enjoying our new discovery of what things look like as a Husband and Wife who have a child, as Mama and Daddy to our precious Baby Daye and as a stay-at-home-mom.
Remember, though, there's always a contradiction. But, instead of calling it a contradiction, I'll call it more of a balance :)
After a long previous week and weekend (Both Tay and I got some sort of stomach bug) come Monday morning I was not feeling so "kind" and "gentle". I was feeling exhausted and maybe not up for the non-stop days of life with a 2 month old:) I was wanting some quiet and alone time and I was also wanting a date with my Bukes!
On Monday evening when I was apologizing for slightly biting Taylor's head off before he left for work (oops, so so sorry bukes!:) I came to realize that this is my new role in life (Mom) and it's ok for me to need a break and to not always be cheery about it and to need to vent. After-all, jobs can become monotonous and routine and repetitive and there are always things that you may wish were different because we are living in an imperfect world with imperfect people working on imperfect things. Of course I am incredibly thankful that I get to stay home, of course I am incredibly thankful for all my husband does (and has done over the past 2 and 1/2 months - sheesh! no WAY I could have done it without him!), and of course I love my baby girl to pieces - but sometimes you just need a break!!!! And that's ok!!! And it's healthy!!!!
So, if you are a mom, take some time for yourself and don't feel guilty about it! Take some time with your hubby and don't feel guilty about it!
And, if you're not a mom yet, remember when you are to take some time for yourself and don't feel guilty about it! And, take some time with your hubby and don't feel guilty about it!
:)
Tay has been offering to give me a "me" night since she was born. And, so far I feel like I have had at least one thing/week where I was able to get out and have that "me" time. But, the last two weeks I didn't. A note to self (and to you), it's a good idea to plan "me" time before you are in "need" of it:). Generously, my cousin came over the next day to keep her for a few hours while I went out and was just by myself. I even got a manicure and pedicure! Delightful!
And, thankfully, Hal was flexible and instead of taking more pictures of Daye, ended up keeping her for Tay and I to go on a date.
And those 2 things were rejuvenating and refreshing and restoring.
Ok, now for yesterday's "Daddy's home!!" pictures:
When Daddy gets home it's SO fun because he's SO funny!
Daddy even does funny dances that Phelpsy and I love to watch!
My smile has REALLY been a fun thing for Mama and Daddy!
The picture is blurry but, yes, I'm sucking my thumb!
Such a little sweet pea!
